Today at work I took yet another forbidden smoke break half way through the long afternoon. I went out the back entrance of the building and wandered down the sidewalk towards the smoking area, and as I did I noticed a big beetle was lying on its back in the middle of the path. I figured it was dead, and I walked carefully around it.
As I stood there, smoking my ciggie, I saw a woman that I've seen before many a time -- she doesn't talk much with me, just says hello, but it's obvious she's of German or Austrian descent, given her accent, and she always smiles and nods when we pass in the hallways -- well, I saw her look down at the beetle, and instead of giving up on it like I had, she tried to turn it over with her shoe. Carefully, gently. But every time she did, it would roll over again, onto its back. I figured she'd probably give up after the 10th try, but no.
What she did was, she moved it over and over and over again towards the edge of the sidewalk towards the dirt where our office complex has laid a small garden out. And then, when the beetle still lay on his back near the edge of the sidewalk, this lady grasped a long leaf from one of the plants and scooped up the beetle and laid it gently down in the dirt, right side up, finally.
And then, satisfied, she went back inside the building.
I was nearing the end of my cigarette and so I moved closer to where the beetle now stood, in the dirt, and I watched as he collected his wits -- really, he did! It took him a half a minute to realize he had his legs back. And then he took two tentative steps, crawling through the dirt. And I stood over him, watching as he took a few more, moving faster and faster, and more self-assured.
And then I went back up to my cubicle, knowing that I had just seen something really cool happen, but not knowing how to express it.
Tonight in the chat room, I told two friends about this, and one of them gave me this to ponder upon:
Lightning flashes,
Sparks shower,
In one blink of your eyes,
You have missed seeing.
If you've wandered here wanting to know what Zen is, then more than likely you will come away disappointed. This is a question that is easily asked but not easily answered. A Hindu story tells of a fish who asked of another fish: "I have always heard about the sea, but what is it? Where is it?" The other fish replied: "You live, move and have your being in the sea. The sea is within you and without you, and you are made of sea, and you will end in sea. The sea surrounds you as your own being." The only true answer is the one that you find for yourself.
Sometimes, things are so simple, they can't be noticed. Sometimes, things make so much sense, they can't be figured out. Sometimes, we can't see the forest for the trees.
Sometimes, what some see as God's work, others see as nature at its best. Sometimes, we just need to stop trying to figure out what to attribute miracles to, and take them for what they are.