As part of my ongoing research into the
tragedy of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder), I spoke with a
therapist with the U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs last
Wednesday. We discussed many cases without getting into specific
names or incidents. One common thread seems to connect all veterans
with PTSD: depression.
Different avenues are explored in each
individual case but thoughts of suicide, violent thoughts, divorce
and withdrawal from contact with others are almost always present.
Lewis, the therapist, told me the
Veterans Administration and other federal agencies are doing “better”
with today's veterans than they did with those of us who served in
Vietnam. That may be true but there will be a price to pay for
decades to come and that price will have more of an effect than just
monetary consequences for treatment and increased demands on law
enforcement. He told me all returning vets are “debriefed” now
which helps them adjust more easily to the “normal” civilian
environment.
One problem with that theory is this:
Many returning veterans don't even realize how deeply they've been
affected. Many of the Vietnam vets I've interviewed managed to
appear to live “normal” civilian lives. Some were successful in
business although many more have told me stories about their
inability to cope with life. Many Vietnam veterans have been deeply
affected by the wars in Afghanistan and Iraq. Emotions and traumatic
memories which have been buried for years have resurfaced. There has
been an increase in claims at the VA for Vietnam era veterans.
PTSD is a festering wound which is
invisible until some “event” scrapes the scab away and reveals
the infection which in some cases, has been held deeply inside for
forty years or more.
Here is a poem I wrote about fifteen
years ago:
Vietnam Vet
If
you haven’t held
The brains of a friend
In the palm of your
hand...
Then you may be sane.
If
you haven’t seen
Your leg hanging on
By a thin thread of
skin...
Then you may be sane.
If
you haven’t smelled
Napalm singed flesh
Or white
phosphorous burning within...
Then you may be sane.
If
you haven’t killed
A grenade wielding child
Or yourself
with different skin...
Then you may be sane.
If
you haven’t tried
To explain your brain
To a spouse who
won’t understand...
Then you may be sane.
If
you haven’t heard
“He was so different
Before he went
over there!”
Then you may be sane.
If
you haven’t sat
Straight up in bed
At a startling sound in
the night...
Then you may be sane.
If
you haven’t touched
A name on The Wall
And remembered a
face and a scream...
Then you may be sane.
If
you haven’t been
So scared that you cried
And begged God to
make it stop...
Then you may be sane.
If
you haven’t lived
For twenty five years
With all this
inside...
Then you may be sane.
But
you’re not us!
I
hope I'm wrong about the price our country will pay for what this
administration has done to this generation's veterans. It becomes
more and more evident every day that the arrogance, incompetence and
greed which led us into the quagmire in Iraq was all based on lies
and manufactured, false or faulty intelligence. Meanwhile the
Taliban has reconstituted itself in Afghanistan and Pakistan and is
stronger and more dangerous today than they were when George W. Bush
abandoned that effort and took our military into Iraq.
I
know what many of today's veterans will feel in forty years. I know
because I've lived with it for the past forty years. I know because
I've talked to dozens who have lived it for all those years. I know
because of the homeless statistics among combat veterans, the suicide
statistics among combat veterans and their divorce statistics.
“We
The People” can't turn back the clock and change what this
administration has done. But we have no choice when it comes to
dealing with the consequences.
PTSD
is going to be a fact of life in our country's future.