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Who Were You As A Kid?


I used to be a funny looking kid.  Or a cute kid.  Guess it depends on who you ask.  Of one thing, however, there is no doubt - I was a happy kid with a pretty screwed up family life.  Seemed normal enough to me, even if different from most of my friends.  Probably grew up a bit sooner than I should have but definitely learned how to love with a fierceness I treasure.  Likely heard too many loud and angry voices that nevertheless taught me the importance of quiet compromise.  Chances are I cried too often to ever forget the necessity to laugh out loud.  All things considered, being a kid served me well.

Just a few reasons how ....

I played in the woods, blazing trails with a big stick.  My Mom would pick the ticks out of my head every night before my shower.  Climbing and then falling out of trees was very dirty business.

I put on old, stiff, faded and stringless tennis shoes before going swimming in the sound.  If you expect to find oysters, clams, mussels and crabs out there best not to do it with bare feet.  Never a big fan of raking for shellfish, but boy, did I love to go crabbing.  Two or three of us in a john boat, weathered oars slicing through the water 'til we found wherever the spot was that day.  Rusted anchor overboard!  String, bolt, rotten chicken, net and cooler.  Add sunburn and stir for a perfect day.

I walked down an unused dirt road and fell/slid down a steep incline to find my special world.  I really called it that - although no one knew about it but me.  I listened to the tiny waves glide through the marshgrass just before they lapped against the gnarled roots of the old tree on which I sat.  And wrote.  Words never seen by another but that the pages absorbed like magical balm to the soul.  Peace.

I rode a hardheaded bastard of a quarterhorse named Red.  When we didn't hate each other we were deeply in love.  Cantering down dusty lanes, galloping down the side of the paved ones - he just knew he could beat those loud shiny things with tires.  Some snotty little kids in a nearby neighborhood thought it would be fun to throw rocks at him.  They only did that once.  Yes, I stopped him before he actually ran over any of them.  But, I swear, several of them wet their pants.

I rode my bike to the local drive-in burger joint with my best friend.  It was three miles one way and we nearly killed ourselves each time.  Just enough change for a soda in a big paper cup with a straw, and a hamburger on a cardboard plate with one napkin apiece.  No cheese.  I liked ketchup and onions.  She liked pickles and mustard.  We sat at a picnic table and shoo'd the flies away.  I've never had a better burger since.

I went to sleep one night and woke up the next day as an adult.  I swear I didn't see it coming.  I tried closing my eyes really tightly so I could go back again, just one more day - one more hour - please?  Pretty please?

What the heck, I'm not dead yet.  I'm gonna go find a tree to fall out of ... and then put a pencil to paper and write words no one will see.

 

 

      

 


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Lovely images.

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Earliest memory is being in the backseat of a car and hearing Jefferson Airplane's "White Rabbit" on the AM radio.

Next song I remember hearing was "Penny Lane", and it just so happens my mom's best friend at the time was named Elaine, so for years I thought Paul was singing, "And Elaine, is in my heart..."

I was always in the woods. When I was living in NY before I moved to CT, circa 1st to 3rd grade, I was always playing in the woods behind my apartment complex, in what appeared to be the old walls of a building, and there was a single easy chair sitting there, and I used to sit in it and pretend to be Queen of the Woods.

I still swear to this day I saw a rabbit standing in those woods with a vest on. My mother assures me that it's the photo of her standing by Alice's rabbit at Disney or some such place. I'm over 40 and I still don't believe her.

Crossing the big mean 4-lane White Plains Road to get down the hill and under the turnpike so I could get to Penny Bridge and play on the swings there is still a frightening but exhilarating memory.

Spending hours in the woods alone, walking paths I thought were beaten by Native American Indians or animals that no longer walk this earth...priceless.

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Wonderful, Lis. And don't ever doubt that rabbitt in a vest ... he might just still be looking for you, somewhere.

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Ahh...the Airplane. First "major" act I ever saw. The old Aragon Ballroom in Chicago. Also at the show that makes up part of the "flying toasters" live recording.

Although I really turned into more of a Dead fan, later. 13 shows in a bunch of years, in five (?) cities.

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I've always thought that every child needs a woods. The woods was such a universe for us. We named places in it. The Old Tree Stump. Rocky Creek. We climbed trees. Ate picnics there. Made forts. Lots of imaginative games.

It's too bad that everything now has become so many suburbs. Few woods left. And parents so terrified of someone snatching their kid, that most kids have little time for free play away from adults and away from being organized into a sports team.

Let's hear it for woods! And for imagination! For freedom in childhood to play without adult supervision!

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Not funny looking. Very cute.
I know.

I have the picture.

I, too, grew up most unconventionally. Words (and music) were my escape hatches. For one endless year it seemed Paul Mauriat's "Love is Blue" played endlessly; the next was "American Pie". Then somebody bumped into the record player and "Seasons in the Sun" wouldn't shut up -- and my body was flooded with hormones.

And life got very weird indeed.

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Yes, life does that to us, sometimes, as does music.

For me, music IS life, so I completely understand.

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Yes, you have the picture, please don't pass it around! I'd have to hurt you. ;)

"Seasons In The Sun". Wow, I haven't thought of that in ages - one of my favorite songs. Life changes and evolves and then starts doing it all over again. Each time, though, there's the added bonus of someone new to love.

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"We had joy we had fun"

My so-called former truck-driving poet friend out in Washington has lately added the Hollies song as his favorite quote in the rock band message board that I met him in....."All I need is the air that I breathe, and to love her".

Actually, his signature is from a verse in that song, and not the chorus, but I digress.

All I need is the air that I breathe, and to love trees, these days.....these are the days, my friend....and I get by, with a little help from my friends....

Yezzzzzzz

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Friends. Some ride their bikes with you. Some share their thoughts from miles away. Either way, the heart is engaged and happy.

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Rec'd.

Wonderful.

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Thanks, q.

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My childhood was weird, partly good, partly sucky. I grew up at a time when, although we lived in the suburbs of Los Angeles, we had a fair amount of freedom...not so many boogey men back then. There were tons of kids in the neighborhood and a big field at the end of the block. We spent a lot of time down there, building forts, sucking the juice out of wild flowers, playing cowboys and Indians. We jumped from garage roof to garage roof, rode our bikes miles and miles to the market, played jump ropes for hours on end.

At some point in time my mom started locking us out of the house so she could watch her "soaps" in peace and quiet, and we learned to drink water out of the gutter (how did we EVER survive that?) and pee in the bushes.

We were poor, but we didn't know it. We were all in the same boat and I never knew that some people were rich until we went to a Christmas party given by my dad's boss. They had a huge Christmas tree w/ beautiful lights that bubbled and we got to stay up late and eat store bought cookies from another country and drink hot cocoa with tiny marshmallows...I looked forward to that more than anything else in my world...

I can't say I was ever sad to grow up...

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I'm glad you weren't sad to grow up, no one should be. Try to remember that those times had their merits as well, though. After all, they helped to create the beautiful person you are today.

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They really did make me who I am. They made me into a mom/gaga who put her kids and now her grandkids 1st, and I can't be sad about that!

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I grew up around politics. My dad was a campaign manager and later a candidate, so I learned to behave myself accordingly. He was not liked by the paper or the establishment, so I got used to public ridicule. Makes the skin kind of tough, but also a kind of skeptical righteous indignation,a nd got used to living in the shadow of a larger than life figure.

I was a fat kid who tried to hard to be liked. Old habits, so they say. I wrote a lot, read a lot, spent a lot of time on boats on Florida's west coast. I had friends but I don't have many specific memories of childhood, so a lot of friends think there was a trauma I've blocked. I don't know about that. I thought I was destined for greatness.

Don't we all?

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Destined for greatness ... are you now just as sure that you're not? Nonsense, if so. You had your own unique time as a kid, your own trials and pleasures. You've written about some of them and shared those words. Keep it up!

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Maybe you've arrived at greatness - in a quiet sort of way.

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I was a little nerdy guy back then. Small, unathletic, very interested in all kinds of science things (thank you, space program!) and kind of awkward.

Lived on the west side of Chicago back when the Prudential Building was the tallest building not only in the city, but west of the Mississippi.

And grew up in the era when Motown and San Francisco shared the airwaves with the British Invasion and what an era that was.

as I grew, I did discover a taste for basketball. To this day the only sport I could ever participate in without embarrassing myself.

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Hi, me! I always liked the nerdy guys, found them interesting. My best friend in the first grade was a boy named Niel. He was a genius who failed the first grade, so wound up in my class. He was a science geek - skinny with funny glasses and I found him wonderful.

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Wow ...

Absolutely wonderful post and thread.

My early childhood?

It's all right here... Silly as it Seems

My later childhood? It's here

Thank you ... Barefooted.

~OGD~

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Thanks, OGD, glad you're spending your later childhood with the rest of the kids around here!

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QUACK!

~OGD~

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Beautiful post. Pennsylvania, early sixties. I remember walking across town to the swimming pool with two friends one blue skied summer day. We cut through the junkyard and as 10 year old boys are wont to do, explored for an hour or two, crawling over the rusting hulks of industrial machinery and inside old tanks. I still have one of those primal memories of the smell at one of those spots in the yard. In retrospect I'm sure it was some toxic residue on one of the machines. Every 15-20 years I catch a whiff that transports me back to that day but I can never isolate the smell to ever know what it is or where it is coming from. Just one of the unsolved mysteries of my life. Flash forward a few years. My early teens. My best friend and I arrange to sneak out of our respective houses after our parents are asleep. It's a fine full moon on a balmy summer night. We meet and begin riding our bikes through the rural moonlit countryside. Didn't know where we were going. Just rode through the twilight talking. No memory of what we discussed though I have no doubt our world hinged on whatever it was and the spirit with which we conducted ourselves. Eventually we pulled our single speed bikes into a closed State park overlooking the Susquehanna River approximately ten miles from our homes. More talk. More magic. The ride home was equally magical although tinged by our reluctance to surrender the night, to return to the bright world of our families who would not know where we had been, what we had done, or that we been abroad in the glorious wonderment of our youth.

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Smells are good for memories. Maybe the best trigger we have.

Riding the bus to downtown Chicago as a kid, we used to pass a chocolate processor. The cocoa smells could be smelled for blocks. (Much better than the tannery a little further down the road!)

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Yes, certain smells will carry me back through the years and I have to look at myself in a mirror, real fast, to be sure I haven't been transported.

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That's absolutely beautiful, miguel. You capture the very spirit of what two souls who merge can create. Whether as kids, teens or adults, to be open to the magic of life as it spills over us is a treasure to hold close to the heart.

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Music aside, I was a happy little blond kid with pony-tails above each ear, for the most part. I loved reading, playing outside, rain puddles, mysteries...

It wasn't until I reached my early teen years and got acne and needed braces and glasses and grew five inches taller than all my friends that I realized I no longer fit in....

Takes years for the self-esteem to come back from that sort of trip, doesn't it? Kids can be so harsh.

Only lately have I started to feel as good as I did once the braces were off and I got contacts.

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It's hard to get past the superficial and see our own worth. But it's much easier if you don't try to see through another's eyes.

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Wow, that is going to carry me to bed, making me think hard. In a good way.

Melissa, you are the Northern Star of TPM. We all wait up hoping to see you, and we are never disappointed in the sighting of you.

Sweet dreams, may they be blessedly comforting.

xoxo,
Lis

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Sleep peacefully, my friend. Thank you.

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Such a beautiful and evocative post. Thanks so much for sharing this.

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Nice to see you, dijamo. Thank you.

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Wonderful recollections, M -- surely one of your best ever and that's saying something.
I know that I was very, very lucky as a child. I rotated in and out of three worlds of varying emotional tone -- parents, grandparents and aunt/uncle/cousin -- in very different physical and cultural environments -- north and south; urban, suburban and country; and summers always spent by, in or on the water -- whether lake or beach. And I benefitted from all of them.

What all of these worlds had in common was that they were experienced in a time that still permitted real autonomy for children . So that even in the city my friends and I could walk, or take public transportation without having to be tended by an adult. And in the mountains or at the beach, it was glorious. The only requirement was that we show up for dinner, and then we could go out and about again until bedtime.

Wherever I was it was a sensory paradise. Sights, sounds, scents, and always family and friends to share them with. Which was better?
Was it the mountains? Over Christmas -- skiing or skating all day long, and evenings spent playing board games or reading by the fire. Or, in the summer -- heading for a swaying bridge over a waterfall via a pine needle, boulder-strewn path under the dense canopy of still virgin forest ? Or diving into cold, crystal clear lake water, swimming furiously to warm up and then lazily out to a floating dock for a snooze in the sun?
Or was it the country? In the north, bicycling for miles up and down farm lanes bracketed by lush banks of Queen Annes Lace, black-eyed susans and day lilies? Or, in the south, walking across endless fields that were punctuated along the river by live oak trees, dripping with Spanish moss, and which were populated by birds and furry creatures of all kinds.
Or was it the beach? Walking around in a bathing suit and shorts, barefooted, or bicycling in a bathing suit and flipflops down hard sand/tabby lanes, stopping to say Hey to big old dogs who lumbered off porches to get a rub or just to lay in the road, sure of their right of way? Ending up in a john boat on the marsh, or a sailboat at the marina, wiling away the afternoon in sun and salt and fresh breezes?
Thank you for reminding me of these particular blessings. What you write always manages to do that, whether the blessing is past or present.

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"What all of these worlds had in common was that they were experienced in a time that still permitted real autonomy for children". That is so true, and such an integral part of the experiences I related above. Those were times when although you knew you were not necessarily doing something your parents would approve of, you could tell them the story 10 years hence and no one would be concerned. That freedom allowed us as children to experience the world without parental control in a 'safe' environment, and hence to feel some of the autonomy and power of a grown up in a limited way. Doing so brought us into the adult world of choices and responsibilities. Perhaps it is that from our childhoods which we remember so dearly, those moments on the cusp of adulthood, when we were really neither children or adults, but voyagers setting out for a new shore.

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That's exactly the kind of thing I wrote up above. Makes me wonder if those of us who had that freedom - to play till it was time for dinner, to bring forth from our imagination a world of play, free from adult eyes or supervision - does that play a role in why we're here at a place like TPM, daring to dream still, to write, to "play" on threads or be seriously concerned about the fate of our country and the world?

Can't help wondering...

Wonder. I think that's part of it! Wondering was a large part of my childhood. Noticing and wondering.

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TheraP -- I think it you're right; I think the childhood freedom that some of us were fortunate enough to know does have something to do with why we are drawn to TPM. The virtual world -- the only place left to explore ideas and play with friends without "adult" -- aka employer or family or community -- supervision. I know I'm grateful for it, and for the like-minded I've met within it.
Sincere thanks --- to all of you.

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That would be big old dogs who lumbered off porches... to lie (not lay) in the road. Oh for the casual, who cares? approach of childhood. Never mind.

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Wendy, your words are always like a work of art to me. Striking, haunting, taking the brush and sweeping the canvas with a vision only you can convey. If it is at all possible that I help bring about such majestry I am humbled, indeed.

And miguel? Your interpretation of one of her points is so perfect. I could not have lived my childhood stifled as most children must be today. Freedom lost for the sake of security? A very loaded question.

Sadly, not just for the children.

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Lovely. thanks.

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Thanks, barefooted. Wonderful... just wonderful.

I grew up over a neighborhood tavern. Laid in bed at night and would learn the base line of every song on the jukebox. Somehow, Ray Price singing "For the Good Times" and Patsy Cline singing "Crazy" are the ones that particularly come to mind.

Knew I was cool the day I finally bought my own radio - all plastic with big analog knobs on it. I could then go to sleep listening to KAAY Little Rock on AM (Beeker Street, as I recall the name of the show.)

At 15, I attended a Jefferson Airplane concert on campus in my small midwestern town, and later that night got invited to a party where Grace Slick and Jorma Kaukonen showed up. God, she was beautiful!

My earliest recollections are myself at about two or maybe three years old. My mother would graciously remove from the console stereo the classical music album she had been listening to, replacing it with a 45 that was my favorite. I would then climb aboard my spring-loaded rocking horse and sing as loudly as I rocked while the player would repeat the song time after time: "Down by the seashore Maryann..."

And as I write, it occurs to me that I don't seem to have any memories that aren't all stuck together with music.

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Stuck together with music ... a common theme. It's the melodies that swim through our minds that recreate the memories, sometimes. Or maybe just remind us of the times, the places - the pieces of who we were then.

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Maybe we need a thread like this more often. What a treat! Thank you barefooted!

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I recently found a couple of old school pictures of myself. The first one was from 3rd grade. I had on a fuzzy white top with an embossed image of a poodle standing up smoking a cigarette in a cigarette holder and holding a martini glass in the other hand(!)

Ah, yes, Richmond, Virginia in the 50's: tobacco was a vice that parents told their children would stunt their growth (as they smoked in the car with the window rolled up and kids in the back seat. When I look at that cigarette-smoking, martini-drinking poodle on my sweater, it seems hard to believe, but oddly the things that grab me today about the picture are these:

- My hair is pulled back in a sloppy pony-tail, and I remember that when the picture came back from the school photographer the only thing I saw was those stray hairs sticking out all askew. All I saw were the flaws in this picture even as a very young child.

- My smile. It is so natural; so unforced; so innocent. Not the frozen, self-conscious, and joyless face that gets frozen into the digital images whenever a camera is aimed at me now. Why do I do that? Why can't I just relax and smile naturally like I did back then?

The second school picture just showed up last week when I was cleaning out a drawer. I was about 13 (not certain about that), and my hair is really funny. Anyone here remember "Spoolies?" Well, it is obvious that I had slept in them the night before that pic -- collar-length and tightly curled at the bottom; still a genuine smile, but more self-conscious; more of an effort.

Lastly, I remember playing quite a bit as a child -- I was Juanita, the Indian princess. Tag, kickball, hide and seek; and then in summer we would visit my uncle who had a small cabin on the Piancatank River where we would crab all day and sometimes fish. We swam some, but the stinging nettles got so bad we did it rarely by the time I was headed into adolescence.

Oh, one other sharp memory: We had two large Weeping Willow trees in our front yard. I dreamed one night that one fell over and it was very traumatic in my dream. Our family went to the river and when we got back that tree was down, just like in my dream. It scared me and I was worried for months that I had some kind of power that I couldn't handle. Although I have had dream images happen since then, they aren't consistent enough to be useful, and I am so so so glad that most of my dreams don't end up as reality.

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Great Post!

I was one of those kids who rode bikes and hung out in the woods.

I was the one who, finding some old abandoned piece of machinery, would proceed to take it apart. One time I found an old refrigerator, so I rode home, borrowed my Dad's tools, rode back, removed the compressor, took it home and connected it to an old motor we had lying around.

I think Dad had always thought I was a little crazy for dragging junk home, maybe right up until the moment he started using my compressor to fill up his tires.

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As a child I was confused and curious.
As a teen I was confused, curious and awkward.
As an adult I am curiously comfortable in being confused.

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Sorry to come so late to this amazing thread.

Just scattered images from my youth:

Eating red beans and rice off brown plastic plates.
Milk truck letting us swarming kids have chunks of ice to chew on.
Putting on rollerskates and taking umbrellas out when the hurricane came in.
Church picnic by the river: deviled eggs and lots of huge people to run around and through!
Chasing fireflies in dark summer nights with the cicadas droning and the june bugs crawling around near the porch door.

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Oh, the fireflies. It seems there aren't as many around as there used to be. The smell of clean pickle jars still reminds me of catching fireflies.

It seems the woods were the domain of many of us! Mine as well. We caught a crayfish in the crick back once. Built forts. Walked the fallen tree over the ravine. (So dangerous! Even though the ravine is not technically a ravine. Might has well have been.)

There was this place that all the neighborhood kids called Children's Paradise, and we weren't allowed to tell the grown-ups how to get there. It was this woodsy watery place. There was a big tunnel we had to go through to get there.

Looking back on these things is always strange in a way. Sometimes funny - the forts we built were inspired by the movie Predator, which we watched when it came out (never really were bound by movie ratings as kids). So to remember us laying traps for the neighborhood bully in the way Arnold laid them for the Predator always gets us laughing.

And then sometimes magical. That place called Children's Paradise? I know the tunnel was a sewer or drainage pipe of some sort. But the strangest thing is, I cannot remember how to get there. Even the exact scene is hazy in my mind. This is strange, because I could lead you all over the woods behind the house. But not to Children's Paradise. It's as if it exists only for the magic of childhood and children. Reminds me of the bells in The Polar Express - the ones only the children can hear.

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I think we're triggering memories for each other here:

One winter we spent days building a snow fort and making a ton of snowballs. We were preparing for a huge snowball fight with a bully or bullies - who never did arrive. Either they got wind of it or it never really was much of a possibility. Except for that one time, I really can't recall any bullies in that neighborhood. Lots and lots of games played in the street on hot summer nights by all the kids.

When I was really little, I recall the dads in a different neighborhood making this huge igloo on our front lawn - likely pretty small in actually fact but I was only 5 or so.

How you got through that tunnel, I'll never know. I recall being very scared of snow tunnels, but maybe that's different.

Amazing the chances kids used to take. Now kids may get very few of those chances - away from adult eyes. We had one hill we'd hike to that my brother found. It was quite a distance (it seemed), dragging our sleds, walking in snow. And it was a terrifying ride on a sled, having to steer carefully due to the trees and across a frozen creek. It's a wonder we didn't break our necks! I still recall the thrill of first seeing a small frozen waterfall there.

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Lux:
Red beans and rice... hurricane...
Where are you from? Did we share a common regional environment?

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Hello dear Wendy,

You are from the Carolina's I expect. My South (and North)Carolina friends say I don't count as a "real" Southerner since my family lived when I was real young in southeast Texas and New Orleans and that's where us kids tried to use a hurricane to blow us down the sidewalk. Parents scooped us up before we really got to test the theory!

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Since our TPM playtime of 24 hours is almost over, I just wanted to thank you all.

We've been kids together, shared our memories and discovered that we have much more in common than perhaps we thought. I am honored to have been a part of the journey.

See you in the woods.

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Thanks to you! It was one of the best threads ever! We need more versions of this.

Ever heard that song? "If you go down to the woods tonight/You'd better go in disguise"

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For every bear that ever there was, will surely be there for certain because today is the day....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5D-13V7Zqwk&feature=related
Thank you barefooted. The honor is ours as well.

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Ditto. And my musical selection to end it out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3AlrFOBmdVI

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