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Open Sore
MSNBC is re-broadcasting their "Today Show", etc. programming from 9/11/01. I thought I could watch, some kind of backward fascination, I guess. I was terribly wrong. It's been so long, they have the right to re-broadcast - why does it feel so wrong for them to do so? God, it hurts so much, even all these years later. Seven years. Yet, only an instant in terms of the heart. Mine, anyway. They've billed it as "As It Happened". They are showing it all - including the planes hitting the towers. I'm falling apart. Yes, the channel has been changed - the tears have been wiped. The heart is still an open sore.
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I couldn't bring myself to watch it...should I try? It sounds like it is just too horrific...Can you feel my arms around you?
September 12, 2008 12:15 AM | Reply | Permalink
Yes, still, I can. Bless you. No, don't watch.
September 12, 2008 12:24 AM | Reply | Permalink
I watched the whole coverage this morning. Mostly struck by the calmness of the anchors, and remembering that you had no idea of what was gong to happen next. And the lack of planes in the sky. Those are the things that stick out to me. And more than anything else, that no one who had any responsibility for guarding the country paid any price for it.
Sorry it's still so raw to you. Shows that you care, but that sometimes comes with a price.
September 12, 2008 12:27 AM | Reply | Permalink
It just hurts so much to see it re-played. And you're right - it seems the people paid a price, yet those "in charge" simply skated.
September 12, 2008 12:42 AM | Reply | Permalink
I know - I was watching their punditry, and then, unannounced, they went into that replay. (By that time I was back upstairs browsing/blogwatching, and heard it in the distance downstairs.)
It's one of those days no one ever really forgets. Where I was when John Kennedy was shot (grade school - they announced it over the PA), when MLK was shot (on a Chicago-bound train), and RFK (up watching a terrible late-night movie when the station broke programming).
I remember waking up to the alarm radio and hearing that a plane had hit the WTC, and turning on CNN just in time to see the second plane hit. Aaron Brown doing a superb job improvising coverage from a rooftop live. The alarm spreading across the country, phone calls to anyone I knew with an NYC connection of any kind, and the terrible uncertainty around what may or may not be coming next. Even waking up one night shortly after and hearing a street cleaner drive by, thinking it sounded too much like a plane in a power dive.
(Sometimes it lightens the weight just a bit to talk about it - to put the thoughts out there and know that there are others who are common ground for us. And I hope that I am helping in that way for you tonight, M.)
Hugs for you...many...
September 12, 2008 12:31 AM | Reply | Permalink
Thank you, me. Your hug means so much. I was in Florida, thankfully we already had a rental car to make it home, since airports were closed. Long ride to North Carolina. Filled with tears.
September 12, 2008 12:50 AM | Reply | Permalink
Sigh. Have tried to talk to you twice.
Damn TPM. Especially tonight.
If you see this, hugs returned
September 12, 2008 1:47 AM | Reply | Permalink
And welcomed...
September 12, 2008 2:17 AM | Reply | Permalink
I watched some, to really try to be objective and reexamine my thoughts and feeling at the time. I still choked up.
Do try to focus on the love and empathy from which the pain stems rather than the pain itself. My heart goes out to you.
September 12, 2008 2:13 AM | Reply | Permalink
Focus on the love and empathy. What an excellent point, working. Thank you for that, really.
September 12, 2008 2:24 AM | Reply | Permalink
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