Nearly a week ago... last Thursday, to be specific... my lovely wife
suggested to me, upon her way out the door that fine day, that I might
take my eight year old and seventeen year old step-daughters out in the back
parking lot and attempt to instruct the younger of the pair in the
mastery of her new two wheeler (the acquisition of which, and mutually
agreed upon regulations surrounding its intermittent occupancy in our
front hall, are all surrounded by histories of horrifying darkness and
horrific despair, but in the end, we emerged triumphant over the Evil
Bike Troll, and no more need be said).

Having commanded the
young gallant garb herself in sweat pants and a sturdy shirt, against
imminent accidental abrasions, and having armored her up fully in a
complete set of Batman skateboard pads -- elbow, knee, and wrist-palm
-- we three strode forth into the day!... I, myself, at least, quaking
in my loafers as vivid visions of crashes and catastrophes danced like
Doukhabours behind my addled pate... an imaginary collage of full
sensory disaster comprised of equal parts wails of childish terror, the
scraping of knees and the denting of chromium fenders, a long flaming
skid of apocalyptic destruction with the theme song of THE SIX MILLION
DOLLAR MAN trundling along sturdily, like the Little Engine That Could,
in the background - doot doot doot doot doot doot doot doot -- "We can rebuild her. We have the technology."

My
trepidations proved groundless, although not at once, no, not
immediately -- the back parking lot was near instantly weighed and
found wanting due to there being far, far too many cars strewn about it
(cars parked in a parking lot! When small children require bike riding
lessons! It is as if the Pharaohs have returned!), so we repaired to a
nearby park, which was as perfectly suited for our topic activity as
the back parking lot had been iniquitous and treacherous to
consummation of same.

So, in the fashion imparted me by my own
dear mum lo these many decades agone as she l'arned me to ride a two
wheeler with her own two hands, I loaded my little blonde youngster up,
grasped the back of her bike seat, and began trundling her merrily
across the grass as she pedaled for her very life. Sneakily, as me
mater had done before me, I let go of the back of the bike after a few
steps and merely ran along; after about fifteen feet of The Baby self
piloting staunchly all unbeknownst of her independence, I announced
from her side "You've been on your own for the last five yards".

Of
course, she instantly swooned to the side, as I myself had forty years
ago in response to my own parent's identical duplicity (my child
suffered far less for this particular deceit, as she was riding on
grass, where I had been being tutored in this arcane art on a sidewalk
in Montour Falls, and fell full on across a gravel driveway, collecting
an assortment of bike related war wounds, some of whose marks still
show on my hide to this very day, to say nothing of the deep fissures
of distrust for all authority yet marring my psyche which shall never
heal).

However, just as I had before her, realizing she could
do it and in fact had done it once already, The Baby leapt to her feet,
snatched up the bike again, and needing only a steadying boost from me,
rode off once more, this time to circle the grassy area for a full
twenty seconds or so before careening to the ground again.

Her
elusive yet vital balance finally attained, the remainder of the
session saw great leaps in confidence and control. The next night we
returned to the park with my beloved spouse in tow, and she witnessed her
youngest child's first full circuit of the round driveway surrounding
the previously described grassy field. There remained after that only
one more hurdle to be conquered -- The Dreaded Self Start. As a wee
bairn I myself could not learn to start off on a bike without someone
else steadying it for what seems, in retrospect, to be entire geological epochs, although
it was probably only a week or so. I do recall, though, that for some
time I relied on kickstands and front stoop stairs to steady my wheeled
mount for me while I climbed aboard and secured the pedals with my feet.

Such
laggardly tardiness was not to be for SuperAdorable Kid, who, only two
days after she had begun, diligently following the masterful advice of
her wise Uncle Nate, managed to self start herself no less than three
times successfully at the very same park.

There are moments in
our days on this earth when we see and can even briefly touch the
shimmering joy that dwells at the very center of life, and while I
cannot adequately describe the feeling that took wing and flew within
my body as I saw my youngest riding her two wheeler for the first time,
and knew that her growing expertise was the result of the work of my
hands and my heart... there are not words, and there are not words, and
there are not words, but the words that come closest are
rapture, and bliss, and exultation, and exuberance, and jubilation.

And happiness. Complete, and perfect, and without limit or flaw.

It's one of those things I thought I'd never have. If you knew me when, you would understand
why as misanthropic a reprobate as I most surely am long ago gave up
any hope of ever experiencing these kind of moments in my own life.

But now, thanks to the infinitely generous nature of my darling wife, I have had the pleasure of teaching my child to ride her bike.

Look at her go.



(Originally published in The Miserable Annals of the Earth.)