Below is what I wrote on March 19, 2003.  It is an unedited look at what I was thinking one day before the war began.

"The withdraw(al) of the resolution is actually a diplomatic effort in itself and every statement up until the start of the war is as well.  The US, Britain, and Spain would welcome further backing from the world...it would certainly reduce anti-americanism.  The argument that the US have always wanted war is irrelevant from the view that Saddam/Iraq has had the time needed to show the world it has changed.  They have not willingly given up anything.  Longer time for inspection will not slow down any plans for terrorism or uncover well hidden weapons of mass destruction.  It will also not mean freedom for oppressed Iraqi people.  It is a choice of action versus appeasement and history has shown us that tyrants do not change and waiting means only more destruction.  More hinges on what we find in Iraq than who was with or against us.  If there is no evidence that Saddam was a great risk to the world the US reputation will be damaged, but many would call this a benefit.  If no evidence and it is a precision operation Iraq will still be better off, the greatest risk is that we find nothing and many civilians are killed as it will be an impetus for attacking the US.  But, if the risk is shown the UN and governments around the world will find it easier to act for democracy in the future even if it means war.  If we are not united for peace, we can not afford the cost of it."

I wish that I had given more voice to my doubts.  But, I clearly allowed my fears to override all of it.  My eyes were open to the worst possibilities, no WMD and loss of innocent lives.  Yet, I did not act.  I can try to excuse it by saying that I trusted our government and leaders to make the right decision.  I can blame the media or war hawks.  But, it was me or more accurately "not me".  I lost my individuality and sense of personal responsibility.  The disasterous results of our invasion make this easier to see, but had "we" been proven right I would still have been wrong.

“Nothing in the world is more dangerous than a sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity.”